rulan's Simple heart

finally... my first move!

2011-07-15T19:32:00.002+08:00

Leaving has always been on my mind, but it seems so far away from my reach.
Deciding has been tough, but once finalized.. it shows up!

Today did a move! submitted a letter to my AGM..
* showed the letter to Jacqueline before AGM, she shocked me!!
After reading, she cried!!!!! oh gosh!! I was completely speechless.....
simply touch!! guess she misss me lah LOL!

anyway.. its been great working with her and the rest. though sometimes there will be some "noise" - building the atmosphere :D

ME: passed him the envelope.
AGM: this is for who?
ME: for you.
AGM: Opened and said... " sit down and close door" and here he goes..sharing the story of his.

Honestly, I love my colleagues and officers. But I just cant flow in with the work loads. It is killing me.
who dont wish to give their best? who wish to make mistake? who dont wish to stay?who wish to live in unhappiness?

Anyway, he said need till wait GGM on monday. Oh gosh! wonder what will happen on monday.

It is drawing near....

2011-06-25T16:07:00.000+08:00

The day is drawing near and I have yet to decide " should I really stay?" Honestly, this give me a stable income but I doubt it really suit me. Endurance is my strength but it can never fill my soul.

throw or dont throw. Am not prepare yet. HELP! the days are drawing tooooo close!

I had a second thought about stepping in relationship but again it seems to be like a temporary wish of mine.
Imagine.. I found a good, caring and wealthy husband.. ignoring the age gap. I dont need to worry tt much. BUT again, my belief in marriage does not seem to change. I see many happy families at the same times lots of irresponsible ones too !!

Can one really commit to me? Can one really take care of me and my complicated family?
Guess being single is always the best though.. it will be a lonely journey. BUT at least it will not be that complicated and confusing.

I can sense many things at office but I dont know how to response to it. Some people are just to over sensitive about others. they seems like little boy and girl when they reacted that way. What can I say.. once broken, it will be hard to restore. hope times and gathering will increase their bondings:)

its sat! and I have not done something fruitful LOL!

Sharing for the day :) 20 June 2011

2011-06-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

Dear Journal,

Im so elated that I went offiice last sat! Most of my loads were cleared and my desk became neater since then ! Life at work is horrible - endless loads! BUT colleagues are so nice and friendly! Love interacting with them! Of cause, I do have the thoughts that I wont be staying long in the compan. It sadden me BUT I got to move on!

Studies should be in the direction am about to head to, but it seems so far reach!
Financially and mentally stress are the keys that stop me from reaching my educational goal!

Sometimes, I really doubt my capbility and ability to work and even being an average student.
Im so blur like sotong and slow like snail- How on earth can I catch up with others?!!

Feels like leaving, feels like staying LOL. What a goood thought of mine.

My strength - I know I am blur - so need to learn to be sharp and not rush.
I know I am socialable - I get along well with people of many ages ! May one be in 20,30, 40 or even 50 and above. I know this is God given gift!

Honestly, I am so tired. I do think of ending my life but it will be like so stupid if I really do that.
Working is not fun! Singing is fun! but singing cant feed me that well ! My singing is so average!

Hope to really get a job which does not required me to think much or do much.
Sleeeping soooon!

Singing Hui Jia !! tough but fun!!

2011-06-11T11:35:00.003+08:00

FRUITFUL 28 - 30 May 2011

2011-05-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

28 - 30 May 2011

28th - went makan at ichino !!
29th - tour at Lim Chu Kang !!
30th - Ikea and gaint !!

thurs night !! 26 May 2011

2011-05-27T00:54:00.001+08:00

dont feel like it anymore !

2011-05-24T07:32:00.001+08:00

seems that my mood has change alot! guess perhaps its really time to move on!
1 year plus experience in CISCO showed me alot! indeed when comes to work..
sigh! you see the real colour of people! Oh well, that's working life bah.
Anyway everyday I dont feel like going office, facing my colleagues esp of diiferent departments are headache!! I know you guys have your job and are doing your job. I dont have meh.LOL.
you can doesnt mean others can cope.

Jiayou Kelicia! 3 more months to go!! August 31 plus come quick!!

Finally I have them !!

2011-05-05T11:14:00.001+08:00

Dear desired watch, nike sport shoe, new spectacles, swimming suit, chargable camera !!
Finally I got all of you! though you guys are sort of expensive.. it is just the matter of time for me to grab you!

swatch watch at $99/-
nike sport shoe at $84/- (round up) - after 30% discount !! WOW!
new spectacle at $260/-
swimming suit at $34/- ( round up )
camera at $299/- discounted price!! go COURTS!!

Im really elated to have them !! yes those are materialistic but it make me super happy!!
Indeeed it is just the matter of time to grab hold of them !!

Not forgetting to mention.. I WATCHED RIO!! it was a worth watching movie !!
Next round will be...

1. Replacing new doors, windows!! not forgetting new beds!!
2. of course more shopping !! CLOTHES!! have not been buying for months!!
3. new bag?? new wallet!!

oh man! talking about wallet?!! I will have the urge to get one!! perhaps i am addicted to get new wallets.
but.. my current wallet is still in goood condition LOL. CONTROL RULAN !!

singular is my present tense and future present tense.

2011-04-22T02:02:00.000+08:00

seen a number of faithful spouse as well as unfaithful ones. some are undescrible-terrible and irresponsible whereas others are commitment liken to a glue. SOME SAY ITS YOUR FATE OTHERS SAY IS YOUR COMMITMENT TO EACH OTHER. OH MY GOODNESS SAKE SOME COMMIT FOR THE SEEK OF PLEASURE AND SO CALL TEMPORARY LOVE. THIS IS FUCKING OFF!! HATE SUCH MAN TO THE MAX!! PLEASE DONT MIND MY LANGUAGE COS I TOTALLY CANNOT TOLERATE SUCH MAN !! EVEN MY CLOSEST GUY FRIEND WHO DID THIS TO GIRL.IF THEY NEED GO ELSE DO IT NOT ON INNOCENT WOMEN!! THEY ARE NOT YOUR PLEASURE MACHINE!!!!! KEEP IN MIND WOMEN CAN LIVE WITHOUT MAN TOO! I RATHER BE ALONE THAN GETTING MYSELF INTO HELL!

My wishing list April 11

2011-03-23T14:40:00.000+08:00

Here is my wishing list-

new top!
new bottom!
new spec!
new lens!
new me!
new camera !!

new heels !!
new watch !!
get stuffs for my family !!

watch latest movie !! ( non scary one of cos HAHAHA!)
shopping vouchers !!
go KL/ JB alone !!
go places to eat !!
take lots of interesting pics!
visit as many local places ! ( pasir ris to Boonlay !! - sound interesting! shall consider )

NO CAKE(S) !!
NO STRESS !!
NO WORRIES !!

my wishing list is short and easy.

summary for the past days

2011-03-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

19 March 2011
Home to Tampines to POSB to CPF board to Tampines MRT to Jurong MRT to IMM M1 shop to IMM Mac ( MacChicken Meal for lunch) to Window shopping ( cos raining --.--) to IMM free shuttle bus stop to Jurong MRT to Woodland MRT to Woodland interchange to Tampines to HOME !!
What a fruitful day!

21 March 2011- Personal sharing
Dont know why some people just want to talk about the deepest past. This is so stupid ! Deeply foolish ! and here they went quarrelling and naggings !! Stupid !! Stupid !! Stupid !!

Why must women be the victim?? All are the same !! Non is good as my value of them continued deeply .
Male friend vs boy friends vs husband. Stage 1 will be enough. Totally dont believe in any. All are the same !! I will continue to be single as I have decided since I marked this decision years back.
Conviction deeply and firmly planted with no second thought and regret.

23 March 2011- Personal sharing
When many said cant, will you belive it is can?
When many said can, will you think it is cant?
( I do agree if others can you also can. the word IF.)

I am taking my BTT today! Hope can passed :) oh man ! its been month since I take test !!Heart pumping hard ! Hope can passed ! Sad to say.. I FAILED !! 44/50!! failed by ONE MARK???!!!!!!!!!1
Shall try again bah ! months later. HAHAHAHAHA!

purposely applied leave today for the test and I failed- sort of discouraging. sort of satifying as well.
I learnt from my mistakes.
Failure- at least I gave it a try.
Failure- shows that I just need to work harder and smarter.
Failure- a tap on my shoulder to try again !
Cheerup rulan !!

Champions are not those who never fail but those who never try !
This is not to pity self but to inspire self to MOVE ON !

Be encourage readers!

Another random updates of me

2011-03-19T22:55:00.000+08:00

Random RU LAN

2011-03-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

Dear Rulan,

here is an update from yourself to yourself!
happy ! finally renovating!
happy ! someone is sitting behind me!
happy ! went makan at The Seafood International Market & Restaurant!
happy ! got praise !
happy ! there's tml still !

sad! body aches!
sad! money not enough!
sad! got so many days left!
sad! pay day if far!
sad! not enough rest!
sad! had LOL dream!
sad ! haven buy my shoe!
sad! haven change my spec!
sad! i going office tml :)

Makaning at The Seafood International Market & Restaurant! This is like heaven!
first dish yu chi, 2nd bao yu! followed by other food! heaven! price heaven too LOL!
Hope there is more to come!!!!!

Wishing list will be up sooon!
May it really come true :D

Random pics for Feb 11 :D

2011-02-28T00:32:00.001+08:00

Blogging my anger...

2011-02-15T14:27:00.000+08:00

Oh man! These few days I have been quite heat up. The aching on my upper arms and shoulders are killing me to the max! Brother In law gave birth yesterday. I'm happy for them! but worried as well.
These young couple dont know can make it anot. All the best. I really hope i need not worry so much for them. I cant even deal with my own life already.

I took leave Monday and today, tml need to head off to work. I am so troubled! cos I'm moodless to go back work! cant wait for month end to come!!

Baby Rachearina Tan Rei Si. Stay healthy and pretty!
From you gugu rulan

my feelings as at 1120pm

2011-02-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

ALL ARE THE SAME. NO DIFFERENCE FROM THEM. BECAUSE ALL ARE THE SAME. SO WHAT CHANCES ARE GIVEN?? ALL ARE THE SAME. ALL GIVE THE SAME RESULT. INDEED SAME. MY HEART SHALL NO LONGER BE SOFT FOR SUCH. ALL ARE THE SAME. I AM CONVINVE OF MY DEPENDENCY LEVEL AND CAPACBILITY.

Pain and breathless

2011-02-10T10:38:00.001+08:00

These few days have been pain and breathless for me. Unknown reason of the chest pain and breathing difficulty cause me much discomfort may it be when travelling to work, being in crowded place or even resting at home.

Last evening, I voimitted all I had for dinner. I just dont feel right, but I did not see the doctor until today.
Today is worse! I awoke from a ' conversation' dream, i felt so hard to catch my breathe!
The dream was about my family- other than that I cannot recall much already.

In that dream I questioned myself once I woke up.
Did you ever ask yourself....

Why out of so many selections, " you" were chosen?
"You" can be your girl friend, boy friend, wife, husband, job, items, brand, colour, number, shop, country of visit, location of a particular, service of a particular??? even the way of doing things. Out of so many ways, why do you choose that?

The reason is simple.
Because it stands out; it is unique and thus attracted you. It can be because... affordable, trend, limited selection, met your expectation, norms or even "left over" leaving you no other option to select.

May it be whatever reasons, you may have it now.
Even if you have it, it may not last long.
So.. cherish what you already have.
Be convicted to make it last.
Fight for it to last long if you think is worth all of your life!

Cherish the decision you have made or about to make.
In other words, think deeply before falling into true destination.

This can be quite complicated...->Percived destination vs True destination.

Before and after seeing doctor, I thought alot about life.
Sometimes, we really need to just pause and think.
Or should I say... evaluate and feedback.

Another sharing...
Mirror.
When you think you are pretty or handsome, you will look into the mirror to make yourself prettier.
When you think you are 'ugly', you will look into the mirror will try to find ways to adjust or cover up the 'ugliness'

Ugly can be beautiful.
Beautiful can be ugly.
It is up to you to see it.

Sometimes, others just comment too much.
Why do you compare so much when sometimes it is not a necessity at all?

If you think others can be as perfect as you, you think too highly of yourself already.
Others weakness could be your strength and vice versa.
Dont ever use other weaknesses to point them down , you are taking their 'life' away!

Also, what you understand may not be understandable by others.
Your way of doing things might not even suit them. Perhaps that's the reason one is not performing.

Love

2011-02-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

I don't believe in getting into relationship. It's value is understandable but to me it is nothing much compared to friendship. Loneliness is nothing. People say time will tell. Fate will come. Again I say, if I want I would have already started. So let time shine bah.

14. Jan 11 to 16. Jan 11

2011-01-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

14. Jan 11 to 16. Jan 11

Friday was LOL.! supposed to left at 530pm... I left at 630 -.-!!!

Sat was horrible. I almost got bang down by a car!!
The driver points should be deducted!! She overdrove the zebra crossing!!
She paused at abt the mid point of the zebra crossing!!
Her car was about 10-15cm from me!!
How horrible is that?!!!!

My brother quickly responsed to her by hitting her car and pointing middle finger which I dont even know he did that as I was walking in front of him.

Quarrelled.. he called police which should be her calling instead.

If she did not overdrove the zebra crossing line why he will hit her car???
I dont know about your view, I just know some reaction is natural.
hai dont understand.. if the problem never happen, will that happen too??

okay! bye.

12. Jan 11 to 13 Jan 11

2011-01-13T14:35:00.000+08:00

12. Jan 11
Work was super horrible for the day!! I was super angry that I took 2 meals for my lunch!!
Dish 1: Economic rice with 3 vege and 1 meat.
Dish 2: Fish and Chips!!
Drink 100 Plus...

and I felt better. LOL! waste money:(( full but I still can eat :D

13 Jan 11
Applied LEAVE today! Took leave again :(( it doesnt seems good but still I will take LOL!
work is terrible home is 'worse'??

Anyway heading off to KK hospital later hope she will be discharge today :))

09. Jan 11 ----11 Jan 11

2011-01-11T20:15:00.000+08:00

09. Jan 11
Stayed at home all the way.. cant recall what I did. but confirm I was online LOL.

10. Jan 11.
I was late for work LOL. not news to many LOL. but at least it was once.

11. Jan 11
I was on time!
Went lunch with Joanne today to ubi!
Enjoy going there though the distance is sort of "near'
TODAY went off at 1910hrs! GOOD.
tml shall be 1800hrs?
HAHA!

bye.

07. Jan. 2011 to 08. Jan. 2011

2011-01-08T11:03:00.001+08:00

07. Jan. 2011
I took PM leave !! HAHAHAHHAHA! went town with my friend! it was awesomely spent! lots of talking! we had lunch and dinner together LOL. hope more is to come C: Thanks for the top! Brought something for KC wonder how he would react when he received it HAHAHAHA! gonna lame him!

08. Jan. 2011
my plan is planned and will update here again!
Bye~

Back:

Today is my first time stepping into JB without any companion!! Shocked? LOL.
Travalling alone to causeway checkpoint is fun! not to even mention waiting for the bus alone..
puzzled at the queue which to take LOL, shopping alone, eating alone!

Thankfully I travalled there with my friends before. My memory isnt that weak after all! :D
Self praising now~! HAHAHA! anyway.. queuing at the immgration checkpoint is not fun at all.

Reached JB Sentral -Ke JB City Square ( I think Sentral means central ) at 1325hrs! 1st stop shopping at F.O.S Factory Outlet Store! And I brought wallet for my brother! "Northern Rock" never heard this brand before LOL! Hope my brother will like it C:

Random Pics LOL.

above: shopping plus eating at Kenny Rogers Roasters

( the svc was "AWESOME" - like real! super dont like their customer svc!)

I ordered Tangy Chicken Spaghetti, Fruit salad and Mango Juice. It took like 15 -20 min for them to serve me just a Mango Juice! LOL. they didnt even give me plain water to drink while waiting for my food. My food took like dont know how long then served. Worse was the fruit salad. I already finished my dish and drink.. I still need to ask the watiress.. " hello where is my salad. I've finished my food and drink." LOL right?! While waiting for my food, fruits and drink I even took the time to write dairy- one full page... so can you imagine how slow was their service?!

above: 1st time visiting toilet received such LOL.

this is so lame..really! but interesting C:

above: Okay when I was at the booth, I didnt know which to queue! I remember roughly where I used to queue with my friends but somehow would rather I felt odd queuing there. but still I queued. While I was still in the queue, I saw passengers inserting the ticket into the bus box.. I was like what the,,, i dont have ticket leh. LOL. Instead of queuing, I exit and head off to another queue that required ezlink card. LOL. While waiting, I saw someone inserting cash instead of ticket in the 1st queue...I was like...already in other queue.. So the queue which I originally queued was the RIGHT queue... SO off I exit again into another correct queue.

I dont know how much to insert so I put $1.50. Driver asked " you are heading to Larkin" and I say " yaya" actually I also dont know. I just know I am heading to JB and this bus will bring me there :D

Anyway, alighted the place is super familar! great! finally I arrived the safe place! LOL.

I began to shop and jalan like normal girls do :) some of theirshops really look like Bugis! Nice and afforable!

Oh ya! I brought a top for myself! Pink! HAHAHA!

Took bus 170 at 1545hrs, off to woodland checkpoint:) Took a bus 950 after that and reached Woodland inter at 1625hrs!! I was so sleepy! slept in bus 168!! heading home~

O6 Jan 2011

2011-01-06T19:34:00.000+08:00

woke up at 0730hrs! LOL! of cause I was late for work :D
after lunch I became quite moody it worsen at evening. LOL!

YEAH! taking half day leave TML!
going somewhere with somone :D she also taking half day leave HAHA!

Sometimes, I dont know what I am thinking nor doing certain stuff.
anyway,, there's still a long way for me?

I HAVEN SET MY GOALS THOUGH SOME I ALREADY HAVE IN MIND :D

04-05-01-2011

2011-01-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

O4 was ok so is o5 :) nights :)

Another MOVIE!! this Year Jan! tml wil be another! hope so..

2011-01-03T23:35:00.001+08:00

1st day of work is horrible- totally moodless. I dont even feel like staying in the office.
Soooo. HAHAHAHHA! I took pm leave :D My plan was heading to book driving test :) then off

to watch movie! RAPUNZEL- A TANGLED TALE !! It was simply awesome!

I really love the feeling of watching it alone!

This time I purchased popcorn HAHA!

Regretted buying popcorn though,,,

cos i finished it before the movie started..

watching advertisement = eating popcorn.LOL!

Wonder what I should watch tml.....HAHAHAHA!
Shall find it out and tweet it soooon!!

Good night 03.01.2011 :)

01.01.2010 to 02.01.2011

2011-01-03T00:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!

May your 2011 be full of exciting tales!

01.01.2011
1st day of the year was woah! I was on fun and exciting assignment!
I simply enjoy riding on bike! Should I consider taking up the license?
I wonder.. though I am scare... never try never know? LOL
It shall be in my 2011 goal list.
Anyway, reached home 2am plus! Oh my goodness, 1st time in 2011 I was home so late!
A good start indeed HAHA!

02.01.201
Met up with VERON JINGWEN CHRISTOPHER AND ALBERT!! for moive " The Tourist".
Simply love the movie though it was LOL!

we had a short drink after the movie and afterwhich each went on our individual route.
We shall meet up again! YESSS!

I'm looking forward - 12 Feb 2011 !!

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Jiayou rulan! you can do it! it is possible! plan well!!

movie time! tml yess!

2010-12-30T20:00:00.000+08:00

tml shall be yet another day for me to watch movie!
really love buying the ticket and sitting alone watching of cos with many strangers! HAHA!

I'm quite shocked that my colleagues in DMC actually catch up with my FB post. LOL!
watching movie alone amazed them. Im quite shock by them as well.
Watching alone with no friends so tough meh?? and shocking meh?? LOL.

anyway.. tml is the day! yesss! wonder what movie shall i watch HAHA!

ok! bye.

happie rulan

2010-12-29T13:37:00.001+08:00

last sunday, went for a simple interview guess what??!! HAHA! as a part time florist. think this would be a great news for me esp Feb 2011! Hopefully my florist experience still saved in my dear low menmory LOL!

anyway.. i took leave today! really no mood to work liao. but still i will press on :) I will write more notes HAHA! I do see myself in this company but for sure it wont be that long...... longer vs longer?! LOL
gonna enjoy myself today! Okay bye radom rulan! C:

catched a movie yogi bear !! super nice! cant wait to watch such movies!
Enjoy buying ticket alone sitting and watching alone.
who says alone means lonely or will be lonely? HAHA!

movie tml?? hmmmmm :|

A shelter I am learning to love and dwell in. Home.

2010-12-26T15:47:00.001+08:00

Perhaps as one grows up, we will then understand situation better. No point complaining on a particular matter as it will never help to improve the situation. Complaint is plainly a form of feedback. Action needs to be done. Something needs to be improved.

2010 is coming an end soon, I will be no longer 21. There is more I need to take charge, I got to grow up!
2011 shall be different from 2010. 2011 shall be filled with lots of postive confession !! I know certain things remain the same since young till this year- current. I'm not discourage I still believe my breakthrough its drawing near! jiayou rulan!

when you are willing, everything should be fine! yesss!
May my 2011 be filled with lots love~
Thank you God for 2010! Indeed the best have yet to come!

Thanks for allowing me to know many good people and challenging people!
Thanks for allowing those problems to exist in my life, I know this will make a grow stronger ME!

I will press on! JIAYOU!

RULAN YOU CAN! WHY NOT YA??! JIAYOU!!! PRESS ON! yoyo!

I'm not happy at all.

2010-12-22T18:56:00.000+08:00

Perhaps because I dont know who am I?

Random 1: I took half day off today! The part time job interview was not my cup of tea. I am still looking forward for a better offer. I believe it is drawing closer! Confessing it firming in my heart and mind.

Random 2: Indeed, what's wrong with no life during the weekends? at least I do have sufficient rest :)
Though there is endless work loads, my tia ji skill improved as well. HAHA! learned from my head LOL.

Random 3: Anyway, I'm addicted to edit blog codes again LOL!

Random 4: I do love my current job. All thanks to my brother who asked me to love the job... somehow I digested what he said. THIS IS SO LOL.

18.12.10 = happy day! :D

2010-12-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

Bonus in! SHOPPING TIME !! But before that cleared some bills :D
My day was awesome-fully spent! Evern though I was shopping alone at Giant and Ikea, I felt so great! I took my long sweet time looking at items! I love it man! Single is good too!

Brought rice cooker! Dish stand! spray! Flowers! cutter! FOOOD!
Dear money, pls increase yourself in my card and wallet!
Part timejob pls show yourself up clearly and PLS stay longer with me hor HAHAHAHA!

Alright! good nights random rulan!

self evaluation for the day

2010-12-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

oh well, back blogging again. this time it shall be quite different than the usual post or is it really?!
anyway.. weekends should be fun and wild! but still i prefer a simple one- staying at home ..sleeping ..going library webbing.. and loaning books.., washing blankets and bedsheets on sat. Pets wash up on sun!
these made up my weekends! comparing to going clubs and pubs... I think i am really a homed women!
of cos i do enjoy shopping and meeting up friends but that would be so much from me.
I simlpy love being alone even during the weekends!

I'm already 21 but often think I am older than that. Perming my hairs would have make me matured but somehow would rather it is still not so... I AM still I AM. wishing life would be better with lots of changes may it be at home or at work.

Hope to have a happier life, hope to be less angry.. hope to shop more than usual.. hope hope hope i will be attached and be married??!! HAHA!

the boy beside me is so noisy!!! shut up!

Sick and depress.

2010-12-08T19:50:00.000+08:00

I am feeling so sick-didnt know that too much stress will cause your stomach to produce much acidic that results your throat to feel dry and horrible! oh man! this is so terrible man! i wanna recover! With such pain feeling, I dont even feel like talking perhaps typing would be the best choice bah.

Many people said I look matured with perm hair but.. still got people call me girl?!?!
Order Food from aunty and she asked " Girl you want soup?" LOL!
Perhaps my look still young HAHA! LOL of cos lah HAHAHAHA!

Made something for him, wonder how to pass it to him. LOL!
farewell gift still?!?!

pls recover ! sickness byebye to you!

over.

2010-11-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

brought something for him. finally passed it to him. LOL! i think i am quite initiative. is that good?
anyway hope to be your close friend :D

clueless me

2010-11-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

Honestly it is time for me to fall into relationship?
it seems that there is sort of a fearful feeling but still i hope to experience it.

Please dont fail me, i wont be able to take it.
Perhaps, I will just wait.

It is great to be loved and feeling of it is forwarding!
I believe God will give me a good man.

of cause I dont wish to be single all my life.
it is so stupid not to fall in love even once in my life.

I believe I can be quite initiative.
I know I am.

Alright, shall not dwell that much on this unknown topic.
God, pls advise :D

孙燕姿我要的幸福

2010-11-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

为爱情付出

为活着而忙碌

为什么而辛苦

我仔细纪录

用我的双眼

在梦想里找路

该问路的时候

我不会装酷

我还不清楚

怎样的速度

符合这世界

变化的脚步

生活像等待

创作的黏土

幸福

我要的幸福

渐渐清楚

梦想

理想

幻想

狂想

妄想

我只想坚持每一步

该走的方向

就算一路上偶而会沮丧

生活是自己选择的衣裳

幸福

我要的幸福

没有束缚

幸福

我要的幸福

在不远处

embarrassing!

2010-11-18T01:00:00.001+08:00

--Start--

15th November 2010

The same gang of us went for lunch however this time Jacqueline (my mama) and Weiren did not join us. One was on course and the other one was too obsess with his workloads.

Joanna (my Manager) and I were in Edmund (my brother)’s card heading to meet Terence (my daddy) for lunch at vegetarian stall. Our meeting point with Terence was at Shell station. He who was on medical leave does not seem to be sick. He looks quite fine and disturbing Edmund said he looked handsome. LOL!

Anyway, we left Shell shortly and journeyed to vegetarian stall which was recommended by Joanna.

Upon arrival, we started ordering the dishes. Looking at the menu, it was not appealing to me at all as there was not a single real meat dish. Dear brother ordered mocked meat to satisfy his meaty desire.

There was a simple and short discussion about the prices of eating in non vegetarian and vegetarian stall. It was quite logical that vegetarian food is more expensive as compare to ordering non vegetarian food that excluded meat in it.

After everyone has finished eating, Terence shared that he will be tendering his resignation. His last day will be 28th Nov 10.

My heart sank when I heard that. Is he kidding? He seems to work quite fine in his post in CISCO.

There was a conversation why he chose to leave, but I kept silent throughout.

I started to stare in the air and pounded. There are quite a number of people resigning in CISCO, mostly they are yet to be confirmed staff. I am already a confirmed staff, should I leave also? Since I am not happy with my work scope, also the overloaded tasks given to me is burning me off.

Nevertheless, I was still listening to their conversation.

We left the stall shortly and off we headed back to office.

LOL! Why didn’t I sit in Terence’s car?

Hope there is still next time, let fate leads.

--End—

--Start—

16th November 2010

My heart was still puzzled why he is resigning. Somehow would rather I am feeling quite depress perhaps lunching with him is getting lesser and lesser.

This morning he told me he will be doing early clearance, my heart sank even more! There is only 2 more days to lunch with him Thursday and Friday 18th and 19th November. I am going to cherish this balance moments interacting with him before he leaves.

When clock hits lunch time, my mind started talking to itself.

Roslinda was on absent, and no one will be accompanying Noraidah for lunch. I was feeling sad if I accompany Noraidah, I would not be able to lunch with my gang, Thankfully Noraidah requested to packet food for her. Happily I headed off to car park to see my gang.

Lunching gang were Edmund, Joanna, Terence, Yow, Weiren and me. This time round another stall but still it is vegetarian stall. I am glad this time I sat in his car though Joanna took the front sit.

Upon arrived, we started to order our food. Once seated, we ordered drink. My menu was hot Milo and he commented. Somehow would rather I was happy that he commented.

As usual there was a conversation but I cannot remember what the topic was.

We left the place and headed back to office.

Almost reaching office, suddenly I remember I forgot to buy lunch for Noraidah. Joanna and Terence who were in the front sit were shocked too. We wondered why none of us remember such.

Anyway, Terence dropped Joanna at Shell and I sat the front sit! I was quite happy that moment.

So he drove me to the nearby coffee shop to get Noraidah lunch. During the journey we talked a bit, most of the conversations were started by him. As for the return trip to office, I started to enquire why he is resigning. He looked happy when I asked that. From his look, it seems that he is waiting for me to ask that question. This was so embarrassing. Anyway, after that question we talked even more. Somehow this amazed me.

Back to office and back to work.

Almost knock off time; I was still sitting in my office. Terence sat quite near to my office and I notice him standing outside my office, it seemed that he wanted to talk to me but he does not know how or perhaps he felt shy? The second time he comes again, this time round he really talked to me. He asked if I do drink and if to join them tonight. I was like sorry tonight cannot. I was super happy when he asked me that. Can this consider he is trying to date me out? HAHA! I am just joking here.

Anyway, he is going drinking with his usual gang whom I know would include Edmund, Erik and Meizhen.

Almost packing time, I overheard Terence conversation with Erik over the phone. He is fetching Erik in Tampines. (I did wonder if he purposely called to fetch Erik so he might fetch me)I quickly called Noraidah and quire if she is coming over to my office a not as we are going back together. I was thinking if Noraidah bumped into Terence, he might drive us along.

Thank God I am right! This is fate or a planned fate?

Anyway, we walked to car park. He asked why I didn’t ask him to send me back since he is fetching Erik in Tampines.

My mind was thinking “hello, where got a girl ask a guy? Shouldn’t it be your job? Worse you know I am staying in Tampines and you still want me to ask you to drive me home. I am a girl.”

Anyway, Noraidah took the back sit and obviously I need to sit in front. I was quite happy! This was the second time in a day I ‘m at front seat in his car!

Somehow during the journey I do not feel right perhaps because I did not talk much.

Thank God both Noraidah and Terence started some conversation. During the conversation, he used his elbow to touch my elbow when he tried to chio me to join them for a drink. Sadly my answer was still no. I wish to go but I think I need more rest at home.

Finally reached Erik’s place, he entered car and started to make fun of Terence and me.

Terence: the news spread so fast so many knew I am tendering.

Erik: of cause she put in her (referring to me) fb.

Rulan: LOL! ( my expression given: that’s not the point hor)

Erik: Kelicia and Noraidah also going with us?

Terence: no. same direction so drive them.

Erik: is it? Or is it another way round?

Rulan: in my heart: Erik what are you trying to say here.

Terence: go lah join us.

Erik: go lah I will be leaving early.

Noraidah: go tml public holiday.

Terence: I will send you guys back.

Rulan: Sorry I am convicted I am not joining.

All: silenced.

Reached Noraidah’s place, she alighted I also followed. Terence was shocked of my act. I think he wanted to send me to my block. (As earlier on he mentioned “where got people send half way”

Anyway, sitting in his car with Erik around will only make me feel embarrassing.

Alighting at Noraidah place is a good choice.

Hope you guys had a great time of drinking and singing! :D

are u joking?

2010-11-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

DURING LUNCH HE SAID THAT HE WILL BE RESIGNING LOL MY HEART WAS THINKING PLS LET THIS BE A JOKE. THINK TWICE AGAIN THAT IS HIS CHOICE. PERHAPS HE HAVE FOUND A BETTER OFFERED JOB. ALL THE BEST TO YOU! DO COME AND VISIT UR SON EDMUND AND DAUGHTER ME HOR :D HOPE UR NEW JOB IS NEARER TO YOUR HOUSE:D CAN SAVE ON UR TRANSPORTATION COST :D MUST CHIO US OUT OKAY THOUGH I AM NOT TT CLOSE TO YOU GUYS! COUNT ME IN ESP SINGING SECTIONS HOR :D 28 NOV SHD BE UR LAST DAY. DO TAKE SUPER CARE OF UR HEALTH AS U ARE STILL SICK. UR SON AND DAUGHTER CANNOT LOOK AFTER U LIAO. UR WIFE JAC STILL AWAY LOL! MAY U DO SO WELL IN NEXT COMPANY JIAYOU IN UR STUDIES :D BYE!

sad! angry! argh!!

2010-11-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

honestly i am not HAPPY with my work!
think i am too loaded! or am i think tooo much???!!!

i can handle what i am handling currently.
i think i am going to faint! screaming!!!!

who wanna meet me go beach!!

shout! hello RULAN :D

mixture feelings.

2010-11-07T13:50:00.002+08:00

Last evening updates:
Assignment not cancelled but my dear colleague is sick, so accompany her to see doctor instead. Hope she is feeling and getting better :)
hopefully next week would be a success :D

Today's updates:
woke up later than expected. rush to wash my bedsheets etc SILLY me LOL! pls dont rain later hor.
off to office to pass terence projector and attendance list. LOL! heard from him IOC projector is workable!! YOW!! ni wan wo ah!! i could have not rush here and there luh. LOL! worse last evening, you said you will leave the projector under your desk, but you left it beside your drawer on the floor???!!! LOL! I was like looking under your desk searching here and there.. SILLY and SLOW me to saw it near your drawer which was just beside where i was sitting LOL! no wonder im wearing spec lah LOL!

meeting my collegue RADEEN SITI later !! her last day tml :( wonder when will be mine man :)
how long will I be staying in?? hmmmmm.. sort of sick and tired of the work loads. I'm no longer young liao luh though I am still one. LOL!

I wanna have more fun at my age! yesss! i shall make it happen! this month onwards!
more arcade! more movies! more shopping! more meetings! of friends lah! more exercising!!
I'm referring to badminton!! HAHA!

Ok, tt's all should be uploading pics later!

- i can be quite auto or should i say initiative?-
my colleague asked me a super personal question. Do you ever have a boyfriend?
my of my.. good question. I also wonder why i dont have one to date.
perhaps because I rejected them luh HAHA!
Personally, I perfer friendship than being in a relationship.
but my colleagues kept saying.. the time will come.
unstoppable de.LOL! shall see then.

will i be attached? will i never be attached?
i'm worrying self. I'm still a women. I do like man still.
Okay, i'm safe.

exciting evening LATER!

2010-11-06T15:22:00.001+08:00

This morning I was super sleepy! got to wake up the usual time to go work!!! SAT though....LOL!
projector was inside my office, no choice got to go office also one applicant will be coming too.

Silly me or what.. should have place the projector elsewhere yea?!! guess my office is still the safest place bah. this morning ya... doing the outstanding task. Still have plenty to complete. Left office around 12pm. Headed to TAMPINES MALL and CENTURY SQAURE !!SHOP! and makan!! NOT FORGETTING PLAYING IN ARCADE!! so silly me when puchasing the arcade card.. It's been MONTHS since i play!!

Oh yes!! I'm so excited for this evening!! wonder who will be my partner??!! wonder how is like to sit on the bike?!! hopefully there's extra helmet if not head home bah. LOL!

think I've sort of grown up. this means I have greater responsibility. I'm so sleepy now ok!super random HAHA! tt's me. when will i fall sick again???!!!!

Your pay is higher than me and yet I am doing more than YOU!!!???!!! this is so LOL!

wondering now..should I take bus 28 to office later?? since I am so tired and sleep????!!! might as well make use of the long journey to Zzzzz!

change mind. headed home instead.
Bye~

if not sleep in the library? HAHAH! jokingZ!

looking at it erm...

2010-10-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

Eversince I have started working CISCO, I felt old liao luh.
Perhaps being as HR and admin officer needs to protray to others in a serious manner.
Cannot joke too much cannot this and that. so not de me.

Entered in May 3, as at todate 30/10/2010, I have stay in CISCO for 5 months plus !!
only 5 months plus and I felt so OLD! though looking at my age I AM ONLY 21?!!

7 more months to go to complete my 1 year in CISCO. This is a target given by self.
If there is better offer, I may just leave. Will I?

There are still so many tasks to do, to learn, to handle LOL!
it is indeed brain cell killer! also a stress cultivator!!

I wanna continue my studies! I am still in the midst of planning...
pls let it be easy. pls let me get in to something I like and will enjoy!

UNISIM?? HAHA! I can only consider pirvate school luh..
LOL! school fees gonna make my head grow BIG!

shall take time to plan! something must be done before I turn 22!

Kelicia Tan rulan
signing off from bedok library at 6.54pm.
BYE!!

black,yellow and white

2010-10-27T22:32:00.002+08:00

B4 LUNCH I WAS BLACK TOTALLY BLACK. AFTER LUNCH BETTER SO BECAME YELLOW. REACH HOME BECOMES WHITE COS SLEEPY LOL! TODAY IS A GOOD DAY. LOL IT IS LAME.

y did i feel tt way??

2010-10-24T10:51:00.000+08:00

WHEN I OVERHEARD IT'S HIS LAST DAY, MY HEART FELT THE PAIN. LOL! BUT WHEN I SAW THE ATTENDANCE BOARD.. OH HE IS GOING FOR ASSIGNMENT LOL! Y DID I CONCERN TT MUCH?? IT IS IMPOSSIBLE. DWELL NO LONGER. I NEED A GOOD BROTHER :)

ever??

2010-10-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

HOW YOU SPEND TIME WITH UR BF?? I WAS LIKE LOL-ING. YOU ASK THE WRONG QUESTION AT THE WRONG PLACE AND WRONG TIME. ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR STUDIES! :D

i find you cute

2010-10-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

LOL I SELDOM POST IT ON MAN. I REALLY FIND YOU CUTE WHEN I ADDRESS YOU AS MR. YOUR FACIAL EXPRESSION IS CUTE! OR SHOULD I SAY LOL! OK I AM STILL YOUNG. FOCUS ON STUDIESS FIRST. SOMETIMES I DO WISH MY MR RIGHT IS BESIDE ME. GOD PLS SHOW HIM TO ME CAN :)

comparison

2010-10-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

ALL JOB ARE TOUGH. HOWEVER, AT DIFFERENT TOUGH LEVEL. I WISH TO CHANGE TO A LESS TOUGH JOB BUT... PLS LET ME SEARCH U OUT SOON! I DONT LIKE WHAT I AM DOING :(

honestly

2010-10-02T12:17:00.001+08:00

I AM NOT VERY HAPPY.

stm

2010-10-02T00:46:00.001+08:00

I WAS SO BUSY. I FORGOT TO MEET APPLE THEY ALL LOL! TOO BUSY, TIRED AND SLEEPY! NOT JOINING BOWLING ALREADY SO SAD !! NXT TIME MUST?? OK TIME TO REST. GOOOOD NIGNT TO YOU :D.

super late off office argh! ;)

2010-10-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

CAME EARLY OFF QUITE LATE. STILL MANY TASKS NOT DONE. LOL! CANT IMAGINE.. I CRIED IN FRONT OF HIM AGAIN.YESTERDAY. REGRETED BUT CANT HELP TEARS JUST RAIN LIKE NO ONE BUSINESS. I GONNA BE STRONG! I CAN HANDLE STRESS :) I WILL EMERGE STRONGER THAN BEFORE ! REALLY WONDER HOW LONG I WILL WORK....I KNOW AT LEAST ONE YEAR :) JIAYOU RULAN!

setting

2010-09-30T04:11:00.000+08:00

MY FRIEND ASKED ME A VERY GOOD QUESTION. IT MAKE ME THOUGHT MANY THUNGS. TIME TO SPEND TIME WITH THEM. MY FOCUS NOW TILL AGE 30 IS TO BUILD A GOOD BOND. JIAYOU! ONE AND ONLY FOCUS. OTHERS NO STAND INCLUDING WORK AND PERSONAL NEEDS?! YES! FOCUS RULAN!!

knew it

2010-09-20T13:22:00.000+08:00

I KNEW THAT I AM GOING TO FALL SICK. HOWEVER I DID NOT EXPECT IT TO BE OVER THE WEEKENDS! :( SO HORRIBLE! NOT BEING ABLE TO DO WHAT I SUPPOSED TO DO :( LAST NIGHT WAS WORSE. I VOMITED MY DINNER! THANKFULLY SUPPER WAS DIGESTED. THIS MORNING I WASNT WELL STILL, BUT I HEAD OFF TO WORK AS USUAL. OH MAN, I THINK I AM WORKAHOLIC ALREADY??!?! WORK DOES NOT SEEM TO SLIP OFF MY MIND. EVEN WHEN I AM WAITING FOR TRAIN, MY MIND WAS FULL OF WORK MATTERS. lol! I MAY NOT LOOK THAT SICK BUT I BELIEVE I SOUND QUITE SICK. LOL! JUST HAD MY LUNCH! WAITING TO SEE DOCTOR AT 2PM (; PLS GIVE ME MANY DAYS MC ;) HAHA! YOU ARE SO FUNNY JACQUELINE LOL!

oh my....

2010-09-19T13:59:00.000+08:00

WHEN I AM 21, MANY THINK I AM 23 OR 24. CANT IMAGINE WHEN I AM 22??? PEOPLE WOULD THINK I AM 24 OR 25?? HOW ABOUT WHEN I AM 27?? I THINK I WILL LOOK LIKE 23 OR 24 HAHAHA!!?!YES!!

am i?i?

2010-09-17T21:08:00.002+08:00

AM I FALLING INTO LOVE TRAP?? TODAY'S TASK WAS GOING EMO ISLAND TO GET SOME STUFFS SIGNED. I WAS LOOKING FOR DRIVER ! I DONT WANNA TAKE CAB THERE. MY MIND WAS FLASHING YOUR FACE HOPING YOU WILL DRIVE ME THERE. LOL! IT WONT HAPPEN THOUGH I HOPE IT WOULD. SO OFF I HEAD TO MAIN ENTRANCE OF THE BUILDING HOPING THAT I CAN GRAB A CAB. AS I STEPPED OUT OF THE TAP MACHINE ,IT WAS RAINING CATS AND DOGS!! SUDDENLY I SAW A CAB INSIDE THE ENTRANCE!! WITH OUT ANY THOUGHTS, I WAVED AND ENTER. DRAMATIC RIGHT HAHA! ANYWAY.. . I ALIGHTED BEFORE THE EXIT.TOLD DRIVER THAT I WILL BE BACK. NEEED TO TAKE DOCUMENT.MY COLLEAGUE SAW MY RETURN ADDED BAD RAIN, SHE ASKED HIM TO SEND ME TO EMO ISLAND.I WAS LIKE.. I WISH BUT I PITY THE TAXI DRIVER.BUT STILL,IN THE END I TOOK HIS CAR. PAID 5 BUCKS TO TAXI DRIVER FOR WAITING IN VAIN AND FOR HIS CUSTOMER SVC. HIS CAR CAME, ME SAT AT THE BACK?!AND HE COMMENTED. I WAS LIKE?? NXT TIME I SHALL SIT BESIDE YOU THEN ! THANKS FOR SENDING ME! REALLY TOUCHED. THANK YOU :)

I am excited! BOWLING !!!

2010-09-11T12:32:00.000+08:00

I was the first to know there is bowling competition OCT 2010 in my department. Of cos I would also be the first to place interest in it! and it became shocking news to many! LOL! dont judge me by my cover okay! I know I look very sweet and sweet girl like me dont play bowling ! HAHAHA! as if.....

Anyway I am at woodland regional libray now?!!
Supposely to be at gym but HAHAHA! I AM simply too lazy to go there alone REPUBLUC POLY!
so near yet so far though I am at woodland now. LOL

This morning I missed the time with Jingwen and Huiying.. OH DEAR!
planned to meet them to play badmintion but hor I overslept..
Amazingly I was awoken by Jingwen's call at 830AM!!
she book the court from 8AM-9AM!

so sad:( missed playing badmintion also heading gym D:
tml meeting jingwen and huiying for badminton!
I believe this time I wont overslept.. meeting 5pm leh!
HAHA! planning to go gym before that.....
really wonder if it would come true HAHAHA!

Sept 10: Pls end early! I wannna take my salary to buy spec HAHA!
and rebonding kit HAHA! also pay billls headache man!

okay! got to go IT"S LUNCH TIME!

this is me.me.

2010-09-10T17:16:00.000+08:00

USING MY PHONE TO BLOG..SOMEHOW IT IS ALL CAP.. LAZY TO UNCAP ONE LETTER BY LETTER SO LET IT BE BAH. THIS MORNING I WAS SLACKING... THINKING TO CYCLE OR TRAVEL TO YISHUN TO GET STUFF.. RAINED SO WENT YISHUN AFTER ALL. OH MAN..REALLY WONDER WHY I DONT LIKE TO SHOP LONGER LIKE MOST LADIES DO.. I WOULD ALWAYS GRAB WHAT I WANT AND HURRY TO THE COUNTER FOR PAYMENT..LOL! PERHAPS I AM REALLY NOT A GOOD SHOPPER BUT I DO BELIEVE MANY SALES PERSON WOULD LIKE TO HAVE SUCH CUSTOMERS?? SAVE THEM FROM TALKING SO MUCH ABT THE PRODUCT HAHA! ANY WAY.. I SHOULD BE HOME BY THIS TIME.. WENT HOME.. SO MANY PEOPLE OUTSIDE MY NEIGHBOUR HSE I CANT EVEN ENTER TO MY OWN HOUSE.. CORRIDOR TOO NARROW?? REALLY TOO MANY PEOPLE! SHOULD I SETTLE MY DINNER OUTSIDE?? HAHA! LAZY TO COOK LOL! I AM SO RANDOM AND ODD SOMETIMES.. HAHA TT'S ME BOI BIAN HAHA! OH YES! I PLAN TO GET A NEW SPEC! BLACK FRAME HAHA I WILL LOOK MORE FIERCE YESS GOOOD! SOMEHOW I LIKE TO LOOK UNFRIENDLY TT'S SIAO RIGHT HAHA BUT STILL TT'S ME HAHA! WONDER HOW MY MR RIGHT WILL LOOK LIKE?? WILL I EVER ACCEPT SUCH SHIP?? LEARNING TO CONVINCE MYSELF TO STEP INTO IT. TOUGH BUT CAN BE DONE?? FOR SURE HE MUST BE TALLER THAN ME:) PERHAPS WEAR SPEC TOO :) GOD PLS SHOW ME :)

important?important?

2010-09-09T21:32:00.000+08:00

Is GETTING ATTACH that important?? Is AGE 30 that SCARY??

sis jingwen on sun bro david on sat

2010-09-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

I have great FRIENDS! just like my SLIBLING! how I WISH THEY REALLY ARE:) Oh yes,meeting brother David this sat at yishun for dinner! Meeting SIS JINWEN THIS SUN FOR BADMINTON!!! MY WORKPLACE IS FULL OF MY SLIBLINGSSS TOO! ALL MY BIG SIS AND BRO! I AM THE YOUNGEST THERE HAHA! THEY REALLY TAKE GOOD CARE OF ME THANK GOD IN EVERYTHING!! PLACING GOOOD PEOPLE IN MY LIFE :)

Zoo Visitation on 04-09-2010

2010-09-05T19:56:00.001+08:00

It was max-ingly FUN!
visited almost all the animals TOO many pics to be uploaded LOL!
So just uploaded my silly poses into FB HAHA!
some are really LOL! hope to visit ZOO again!

OH YES! who wanna visit ZOO with ME?
FREE ADMISSION! of cos I need to there in !!
pls contact me if you're interested :D
we can go together!

take bus 138 from Ang Mo Kio :D
you'll love the place! BUT sort of far somehow... LOL!

will i ever???

2010-08-30T00:21:00.001+08:00

A QUESTION i ASK MYSELF..WILL I EVER???

it's been so long...

2010-08-07T12:03:00.000+08:00

"it's been so long...I haven been blogging~" sounds familar to a song?!
HAHA! oh yes, now my work is at a greater risk! more tasks more workloads more challenging!
really dont feel like working for them already but no choice leh..
I need earning! rulan is a practical person :) I am still in the midst of finding a better job where I can really learn and enjoy to the max! hard to find such, but i believe it exists :)

oh man, i can sense someone is trying to mix match me with someone
or am i thinking too much?! anyway, their effort will sure be wasted as my conviction still stands.

oh dear, many people at work place say.. you are naughty?! HAHA! am I?
I am as guai as a sheep ok! HAHA! ok it does not seem convicing enough..

work at fun! task is not..:( people is nice.. but some are fake..
some who have not been treating me nice changed.. this is so fake..
or am i thinking too much?

back to basic of life.. think easy do things easy;)

oh yes! me now at BUGIS! its been ages since i enter here..-.-!
meeting jingwen later! makan and for a goood chat and shop!

MONDAY is a public holiday! YEAH! i can rest longer!
ok! logging offf

byebye people and me :)

SHOUTING!

2010-07-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

I'm not as good as you. You might not too okay!
Your strenght is my weakness.
So is my strenght to you!

ARGH.... today my mood is super off!
but still I did smile :/ why.. cause super lame!

Anyway, Im still struggling at work.
Should I stay put? I got one interview this sat!
PLEASE let it be mine
PLEASE let me enjoy!
so I will stay long! (:

different people different expectation. And they expect you to do it correct at first SHOT!
CRAZY! What i learnt.. Anything that can go wrong will go wrong -Murphy Laws
THIS IS SUPER TRUE! pls dont be overconfident!

Also, If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.
Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.
In nature, nothing is ever right. Therefore, if everything is going right ... something is wrong.
info extracted from: http://www.murphys-laws.com/murphy/murphy-laws.html

I am still young! press on RULAN! JIAYOU! ZAI JIAYOU!
TEAR NOT! YOU CAN OVERCOME IT!

closing day

2010-07-19T19:28:00.000+08:00

I am duber sleepy! Knocked off from work late.. but thanks to YOW! I got free ride to the east! Thank God he is heading to east side too!
now in library bloggging.. go home... abit sian,.. BUT i miss my bed!

HAHA! heading S&S to grab some sweets! my brain is totally not working for the day!
slept super late last night or should I say this morning...:/ LOL!

ok time to go! shall blog soooon!

WORK IS TIRING! may more laughters on its way!
PLEASE!

A heart that longs for SOLUTION

2010-07-17T10:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I am back printing my past on this blog once again! Oh man it has been 'ages' since I last blog.
I have yet to fix my cable :/ HAHA! I will continue to be lazy HAHA!

Anyway.. 03 Aug 2010 is coming sooon! AND this marks the end of my 3 months probation at CERTIS CISCO! Please better pay job come! Hmmmm... increase my current pay would also be a great option I long for! Since the work load is so much HAHA! Oh man, Admin Officer is indeed not a good status especially when you are under Human Resource Department :/ HELP!

There are times I wanted to give up. 'Rained' my face many times because I cannot handle the stress level.
Looking back, I am quite happy that I pressed on. NOW I got the KICK of the job!

Indeed, challenges are not there to say bye to you. It is there to say "JIAYOU!"
One will level up as it solves each challenge ! Solve with a simple and true HEART!

Working with people is FUN! Working with people of different department is more FUN!
I got to challenge my emotions and ways of communicating to them!

Yes! different people has their way of doing so I am. If they cannot change and adapt to my type, I WILL CHANGE AND ADAPT TO THEIR TYPE. This helps to make processing alot more easy!

A MILLION EASY!

As you begin to understand others meeting their needs THEY will in turn do the same thing to you!
They might not do it now, but they will ! BE PATIENCE you will see the result in due time!

Honestly, I am quite happy to encounters challenging problems! Because not everyone will go through it. Different place different challenges, different people different way of dealing with it.

YES it is when you experience it, then you will begin to understand how things work and how the process should have been improved. Life is a process and it should IMPROVE! jiayou readers!

I hope this post helps to stir up your spirit to think bigger about life!
I am struggling too, but I struggle with happiness (:

YOU CAN CHOOSE THAT TOO!

Blogging my feelings

2010-07-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

I AM NOT HAPPY! because things are not going alright. I do understand this is part and puzzle of learning and life. This is my feeling I am just not happy.

WHY CANT I JUST FOLLOW SIMPLE INSTRUCTIONS? hearing others explaining and then executing it can have different results some results are really super BIG! The problem is not how well one can teach and explain a particular things, it is how the listen able to understand. What I understood were not right that's why wrong actions ..leading to wrong result. I understand I am at fault. so do you. You can blame totally on me. Since you know I am new, you should not even give me such task. And when you help, dont throw me half way ( though you did tell me what to do but then... wrong understanding) Perhaps I should ask even more questions. I am sorry if I didnt. What has happened already happened, and I see your true attitude on how you face such problem. And mine is seen too. I know I am wrong, sorry. But do you need to voice out so loud? Hai.. this is earth. This is company. Speechless me. There's a problem, I look for solution directly dont bother to explain to me yet. Cos it will be pointless to me. Indeed different people different prospective views. I dont share the same thoughts as you though i should. ANYWAY, it is indeed a lesson learnt.

WHY AM I DOING TASK THAT IS OUT OF MY SCOPE? i've been waiting for my head.. already one month plus.. only body is moving.. ME! I seems to be doing many things which are out of my job scopes!
give me something I should do please! AHHHH! I am sort of angry and depress..thoughts things have settled down one by one.. NO! it is coming in already.... I think as i continue to work in such place... white hairs gonna grow already;(( I want a better job! found I would leave FOR SURE! no worries I will continue write notes before I leave. I will ensure there is proper hand over(: I dont wish the same thing to happen to me..

I'm like a white piece of paper. totally clear. people just paint me. And I slowly I am removing those marks using a knife.

Life has beeen horrible at work. not even mention home. neverthless I will hang on.. just unsure how long I can stay on......

dear rulan, you are not alone. Positive is your friend! JIAYOU!

i'm back for uopdates!

2010-06-27T18:30:00.000+08:00

work has been challenging as usual BUT it can getting better!
I meant the work load (:

everything is ok but still the usual thing exist still..
but it is ok
shall see how people response bah.

every problem has its own unqiue solution.
Let it be. shall see how bah.

cant wait for more interesting happening!
ok gtg bye~

struggling strong!

2010-06-12T16:32:00.000+08:00

It's been a month plus since I worked for PS.
Today's once again I stepped into the shop as sales assistance
to be more specific PART TIME sales assistance.
Ended work at 3pm however was chatting with a customer so
ended up leaving 345pm. Hi Diasy I will remember your sharing!
It was a short conversation with her but I learned alot!

Unsure of the path I am really heading in life!
Life goes on! I will create my own path!

Oh yes! went site visit with boss and some of my colleagues!
speaking to a group of PRC. Oh man! I got to improve my
HUA YU!
after which went off to meet my brother who is working.
I waited for him like mad... 730-930pm!
spent 730-8pm eating at KFC! yummmpy!
cant even remember when was the last time I had that HAHA!

8pm-9pm I was waiting still! it was super horrible
when was the last time I waited for someone so long?!

but still worth waiting, cos taking cab HOME!
sometimes.. we are too calculative..
are you?
think about it.. how many times you complain about a particular thing..
is it worth complaining? human behavior.. talk!
time to coool down JIAYOU me and YOU!

Alright time to gooooo, Oops! I am still at library xP

Let's start..

2010-06-09T14:41:00.000+08:00

Life has been even more challenging as I took up the job.
Now worse, things are getting worse!
I need to work extra harder to live happily(:
everyone at home gathered but not one heart-.-!

Anyway, today I Slept slight longer than usual HAHA!
because I am on leave! no pay leave:(

Prepared myself and went for job interview.
The feedback of my personality test amazed me!
Indeed, I need to use my strength to work so to ENJOY!

Currently I am on 3 months probation as admin officer(hr)..
thinking to leave before that??Aug 3rd is the end of probation..
I dont want to leave just like that.. I WILL ensure my notes are there!
I am still in search of a better career(:
Pls pray for me (:

Cant wait to start work at PS! every weekends!
I know I gonna be tired but I believe I will enjoy!
earning extra income!
Hearing updates from Ah Cham this evening!
Let it be good news please!

When tough time get tougher.. I will get stronger !
Oh man! thoughts of working as a fitness trainer often flash through my mind..
But.. HAHA! end case! I still want 5 days office job!
so weekends I can work another job!
HAHA! I am women with man's phyical strenght!
ok i dont have big muscle but I am still strong okay!

SAD! today's dinner with Yongxiu and tml's meeting with Jas and MJ are cancelled:((
meet you guys sooon once everything settled down(:
Thanks for all your prayers!

I miss my old me or is she there all the time?

Dont tell me you understand when you dont at all.

2010-05-31T02:03:00.000+08:00

Dont tell me you understand when you dont at all.
we may experience similar situation in life but they are not the SAME
You may eat salt more than I eat rice
But what brand of salt have you ate for the pass months and years?
How tough is your salt compared to the rice I've eaten?
Dont tell me you understand when you dont at all.

help when you got the ability and capacity.
Sink yourself and dont pull others in.
Love is share?
I would give it a second thought..

what you know when you said you know differ from what I know.
stop thinking that you know when you didnt even know.

Just be silent, that's the greatest gift I hope to receive from anyone.

not ready

2010-05-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

i dont know what i am thinking..i dont know what i really want..perhaps a simple life is all i want.. Able to eat 3 meals, meals, pay house bills..go shopping..go oversea..get a new camera..go for hair treatment..have my own house:) with my own0 designs..no stress at work..no stress at home..everyone is happy:)

逆光

2010-05-30T13:31:00.002+08:00

也许我一直害怕有答案
也许爱情仅在风里打转
离开释怀
很短暂又重来
有时候自问自答
我不要困难把我们击散

我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下

有一束光那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见

那是泪光那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下

有一束光那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见

那是泪光那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

我以为无路后退
反复证明这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑
忍住疲惫
睁开眼打开窗
才发现你就是光芒!

有一束光那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见

那是泪光那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

光芒
你是光芒

Questioning?

2010-05-30T12:51:00.000+08:00

Questioning too much?
Questioning too little?

Why do people question?
- to gain knowledge?
- to discourage someone?
- to gain recognition?
- to re-affirm

At school, I would believe is to gain knowledge.
At work, it might be to gain recognition.
Questioning can be a killer.
It can also be a reflector of your laziness.

Back to..
Questioning too much?
Questioning too little?

ALBERT 21st BIRTHDAY!

2010-05-30T12:29:00.000+08:00

Updates..... ALBERT 21st BIRTHDAY!
27 May 2010

Thank God there's direct bus home HAHA!

Travelled down with peers and we were LOST!

roadside is so SCARY!

but still, the party was GREAT!

DOES IT MATTERS?

2010-05-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

The result was so LOL! I cant teach nor guide people but somehow the result viewed it another way... am I supposed to be (:-ing? Thank God I am people oriented if not i am gonnna die very sooon at work place.. i trust i am not dying soon HAHA!

Personality Test Results

Our basic personality can be summed up in four descriptions: Director, Marketer, Analyst and Mentor.

Your Scores:

Director
Marketer
Analyst
Mentor

24 %
28 %
16 %
32 %

Personality Test Results

Our basic personality can be summed up in four descriptions: Leader, Inspirer, Examiner and Coach.

Your Scores:

Leader
Inspirer
Examiner
Coach

16 %
28 %
16 %
40 %

Click here to take your test(:

I'm excited to mit up you!

2010-05-20T22:15:00.001+08:00

out of home to meet you!
yess my friends! Let's meet up and off we go again!

Working has been so far so good(:
Thank God for good colleague at work place(:
No matter how tough the challenges are, I am fighting against it!
Hope better job is on my way >.<

I need to start planning! Alot of things are on its way YESS! PAY TOO!
cant wait to go KBOX! OVERSEA! MAKAN! SHOPPING!

9 more days to go!

2010-05-17T23:01:00.001+08:00

5 days work! meaning I am left with 9 more working days before the month ends!
To more be specific... 14 more days before the month ends! 2 MORE WEEKS!
Lift my hands up! THANK GOD! half the battle is ready won!
YESS! time to celebrate! Getting my pay sooon! 14 more days!
Awaiting for the day to come soon! I'm pretty sure by then many problems would be solved!

Sigh.. thought of making a decision.. to leave or to stay is troubling me these few days:(
Perhaps I should give double thoughts on it. I am no longer that young though I am just turned 21..
Alot of things I need to take care.. I seems to be married but of cause I am not!
But I know in my heart, I am a mama to my pets! HAHA! ok. tt's DIAO of me...

Sat down with boss and joanna today. Unbelievable I cried?! I dont even know why I cried leh..
Perhaps I am too overwhelmed by the tasks given cause I am fresh graduate who does have know anything on hr and admin. Perhaps I have too 'small heart' cant do task totally alone- super self independent?!
or even perhaps.. due to generation gap?!

Aiya.. or should I say I too particularly emotional? HAHA! anyway.. I decided to stay first and see how I am able to adapt to the new environment.. 1 month is truly not sufficient enough for me to figure out how my job scope is like.. silly me!

I shall not be a cry baby (: I shall take take the challenge! that's more like me... I would say!
(: jiayou everyone! including me of cause(: Press on hard! Breaking walls!

who knows I will rise up and be executies? for now I am just a hr and admin officer.
to be exact what is reflected...admin officer only.. tt's super DIAO! I'm tricked!

Learning to enjoy work(: Learning to enjoy working with seniors (:
I shall bring my joy and laughts to cheer them up!
Jiayou!

I can do it! so can YOU!

out of home to m'sia 15th!

2010-05-16T01:49:00.000+08:00

Out of home to M'sia! The journey with Jingwen and Yenchin was simple awesome!

Met up Jingwen at Admiralty Mrt then off to take bus 912 to woodland check point(:

*met up Yenchin at the bus stop before heading to checkpoint.

took bus 170 to m'sia JB! jalan around.. stop at dunno where but it was at basement 1

for cake and ice cream! simply yummp! should not be eating cold food.. but!

After which we went to grab our dinner! at dunno what roasted bla.. HAHA!

Pictures are in random(:

it was nice! short and simple dinner ! hours of relaxation is enough to cheer me up(:

Aunty LUCY at TM!

2010-05-12T15:19:00.001+08:00

Aunty LUCY at TM on 9th May 2010!

It was quite amazed to bump into Aunty LUCY! Berenice and me saw her at TM basement 1 !

I could not upload the video:(( She sang well !Enjoy her singing!

Oh yes,,, didnt upload this( below).. Angie one of my colleague at PS cooked for me! super nice!
she's already a mother, of cos can cook! must also hor ... HAHAHA!

Look back,, realised I didnt upload(below).. it was so disgusting! rot already ....
interesting rotting though..HA!

Reminiscing the pets at PS,,, these 2 are adorable still !
miss working there man! but... HAHA!

End of post(: updating more on my graduation pics! and more more more!
Signing off, rulan(:

oh yes! my name was mistaken as.. ru lu! what a joke for last week! DIAO!

Genuine LOVE

2010-05-09T12:18:00.001+08:00

Ever wonder why you can't work well with your colleague(s)?
Ever try to understand them by putting yourself in their shoe(s)?
Ever thank them of the little thing(s) they have done?
Even if the least of just opening the door or even pressing the lift button?

You may not have what they have..
neither do they have what you may have..

The question is...
can you accept what they have and what you dont have
And work things out so both party will be smiling.

One who is equipped with knowledage that you do not have is not a reason why you can't connect with them.
Sometimes, you got to stop(thinking you lack of knowledage in a particular field that is used to connect to them) and start understanding them. I believe people can be easily connect far beyond work matters.

Genuine LOVE is enough!
I believe I can work well with the people around me! yesss! I confess with my Genuine LOVE!
I may be the youngest among them but i still believe...

1. do things with love, it builds friendship
2. do things with concern, it makes an impact
3. do things with care, it establishes trust

08th- settled but not all.. Thank God in everything! I know my breakthrough is coming!
09th- missed but not all. Thank God for ie access! svc was speechless! I'm greatly blessed!

Tml might be a challenging day for me, God I know I can do it with your grace and wisdom!
I will do and work things out with Your Genuine LOVE!
Amen:)

What can i say..

2010-05-08T12:09:00.001+08:00

Day 5..
It was simply... HORRIBLE!
morning i was alone! Received a call, the task arrived...I was taught how BUT was not well taught-.-!
what de... mistake was made thankfully it was accepted if not i gonna fly~ it was corrected in the later time of the day! Wohooo! goood! Thank God!

afternoon she finally came! but not her..-.-! she knows well what to do but not her..
Her presence was still a great help to me!
Thank you!

Afternoon was super duber busy! running up and down moving here and there... diao!
really wonder will i grow fat? I've been using lots of my juicy brain wor...

suppose to end at 530pm!... end up 730pm!
how much tasks were given... can you sense it now?

Next monday is even worse...not sure if she is coming..diao!
not sure what time she's coming...
doing alone! not funny leh..

student is willing to learn.. how about teacheer?
Willing to teach?

I super dont like this way of learning new things!
super horrible!

But I learn.. to keep on walking! perhaps they are not taught well tt's why this happen to me.
The poor process shall not happen in me to others! I confess! ((: with notes(:

Each has one's struggling,

the matter is can you accept and do it with a smile(: ?

Day 4 at work

2010-05-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

sudden 'busy' moving here and there, up and down the stairs were really horrible man! but... it was fun!
I got to learn even better(: thank God for Grace who accompanied me(:
I cant imagine when i am working alone. God i need your grace! :)

today's super LOL! my name was entered wrongly!
instead of rulan or tulan( understandable that letter R and T are very close.)
.. it was entered as ru lu... this is so funny!
I was laughing! totally find no link why it was entered that way..diao!

had lunch at canteen yummp!
Thanks for the morning treat Grace!

Tml shall be a better day!
I confess! God I pray too! (:

day 3 at work is..

2010-05-05T23:12:00.003+08:00

day 2 was sport day! day 3 back to office! it was like.... -.-! so much tasks...
cant imagine when my email is being set up:(((

hahaha! I saw stray dogs! they are so adorable! and independent on each other!

Day 2 at work

2010-05-05T01:11:00.001+08:00

Never thought my 'school' life is starting again! 830am-6pm simply reminds me of the time when I was in Dunman secondary school! Waking up early.. staying up for cca.. reaching home around 7pm plus or even later.

However, the subject now is more tough! I often mull over the task that I'm allocated. I could only say.. it is really tough! Nevertheless I will still find ways to work it out(: I seek Your guidance even more!(:

3 months probation, can I make it?
Day 2, expectation is already at such level oh man! I really need to jiayou!

At the same time, I need to set time to improve on my command of english(:
jia-you-ing even more!

I really need to make full use of the balance time of 12 hours including sleeping time to maximise my capacity to do even more things! research upon research needs to be done no matter how.

Day 1 at work

2010-05-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

Day one at work was quite smooth. Made a silly mistake and that was reporting to the wrong building to the wrong person. (Indeed anything that can go wrong WILL go wrong- learnt it from quality management module) And that person actually started teaching me how their routine works; understanding the types of documents.-.-! nevertheless, my memory failed me, thanks to my notebook(: it helps me once again! There are much information I need to take know and take note of.. somehow it is killing me man:( rolling eyes!

I've gald to meet and get to know good people around me (: Hope to know more soon!
YES! it's all about net working!
JY to self! God I know you will lead me!

Tomorrow is another day! Sport days! heading to work at morning! off at noon to TP!
nearer to home! yessss!

oh yes! found something cool
'Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
Ralph Waldo Emerson '

Rabbit Care ( click to enlarge )

2010-05-02T23:35:00.006+08:00

simply adorable!

2010-05-02T03:18:00.000+08:00

one of my colleagues LOL!

2010-05-01T04:50:00.000+08:00

He is so steady! I asked him to follow my pose and he did so! This picture is cute right HAHA!

Working with them had been fun! Learnt lots from them! I will drop by the shop to visit you guys!!

More pics to be uploaded HAHA!

Good news!

2010-04-30T16:20:00.000+08:00

received a call this morning! I got selected! Praise Him to the max!
interviewed by 5 man! what the..... indeed it was a good experience!
Normally people interview is 1 is to 1, if not 2 is to 1.
I had one which is 3 is to 1. 3 ladies!
Yesterday was 5 man! oh man! Thank God for His boldness!

Starting work on monday!
Let everything shine!
God thank you!
Please continue to lead me(:

rejoicing again!

2010-04-29T01:03:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna experience a new working life less than a day! this is so exciting and cool! I cant wait for such changes to take place man! perhaps i love surprizes may it be good or bad news! i believe learning is in all forms!
both in good and bad way! Sometimes i dont really get people why they are super discouraging when bad news hit them.. perhaps! learning to let go is still a big task to many bah?

tml's interview i confess i will pass! I know and I know I will ! Here i come! confessing stronger!
no matter what's the result i still believe there is a way! HAHA! my worries at times are just temporary!

alright time to catch a goood rest and sleep!
good night to all ! those on earth and in heaven!

Cheers,
rulan!

hao lian pple.

2010-04-28T00:56:00.003+08:00

To me, hao lian pple often or should i say always..

1. look down at others
      -What you dont have this?!?!
           -Huh? You mean you never heard this before?
           -oh my~....you're such a slow XXXXXX

2.think they have all it takes to be a particular person
       - pls dont teach me what to do
   -come on, you're what?!
             - I got this. what do you have?

3.think they know everything
            -oh! you can use this.This is every good ( in fact it is not recommendable)
                 - aiya! you dont know one lah.

4. only know how to bullshit!
                     -anyhow recommend
   - oh i know this place ( anyhow bomb...)

5. find people's weakness and disgrace them to the lowest (this is call good' friends)
         oh she ah? hai! always drop things! ( in fact not true)

6.they are always right
             -nono! you should do it my way!
   - listen up!

7. dont admit their mistake(s)_
         . -i didnt do that! it's her. last touch is her

8. dont find comfort in little things
           -quite sad to say that.....but somehow it's a fact

9. full of self!
       - do you know i got this and that?
       - does most of the talking when in group(s)

Mistakes are not there to discourage you,

it's simply to remind and
encourage you to try again!

Stop being hao lian!

Start understanding others just like

how others trying to

understand YOU!

Weakness shall be molded

and become strength!

All I ever 'one' is...

2010-04-25T03:13:00.001+08:00

just a simple life(:
I hope to go gym!
I hope to rebond my hair!
I hope to wear contact lens!
I hope to get a new bed!
I hope to shop more!

I hope I hope...
yes! they are coming true sooon!

oh yes! I hate them but somehow i still love them!
you will not thought of it...
zipped!

it's beeen...

2010-04-23T14:04:00.000+08:00

Oh man, my new look is somehow killing me :( sometimes it looks okay but at times it;s not!
Dear fringe please grow slightly faster HAHA! i believe your potential in that HAHA!
Thinking to rebond my hair... oh man! interview upon interview is really getting my rest off...
please dont call me in the morning leh.. i wanna rest HAHA! call me after 11am HAHA
tt would be best! cos i sure pick up HAHA!

above: Angie and Kelicia

Angie looks quite young! make a guess how old is she ((:

guess correctly let;s meet out for a drink!

HAHA!

simply thankful !

2010-04-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

finding a job is easy! finding a permanent job is easy too! Finding a well paid and permanent job is a big task!
I've been going interview upon interview and still nothing pleases me to settle down in the job.

1st interview: at ICA. unbelievable commitment so nono.
2nd interview: at ComfortDelGro. a replacement position pay not bad but i not ok. so nono.
3rd: recruit express: goood pay!! but venue is a big nono!
4rd... 5th.. insurance types.. super NONO! i walk away when I see them how on earth will i join them?
6th: later!! customer service perssonel sounds somehow normal though but i love it! hope the pay is goooood! I will be interviewed by person X who is Vice-President, Business Operations & Information !! this is so scary!
hope it will turn out goood! good pay too! HAHA!

Alright these few days.. not very focus at work! my mind is on interviews! HAHA!
Really hope to get a stable and good pay with god location job!
my potential shall shine!

simply love talking on the phone!
formal one!
to be updated man..
byebye!

wasnt pleased at all

2010-04-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

i wasnt pleased at all. I went for the seek of going. I'm real sorry to say that...just that my heart wasnt on nor for it. I dont feel excited at all though i tried to. rulan is indeed practical. please dont mind her.

I'm still in search for a job!
upon 'stabilization', i want to start travelling alone!
few months one country(:
of cause nearest one HAHA!

it shall be a one day trip for sure!
hope it comes true soon!

of course i need to ensure some things are settled down 1st (:

oh man! i wanna be alone!
of cos at times i do want to go in groups! stay at hotel! ((:

KL trip with JAS! on 13 and 14th April 2010!

2010-04-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

shall blog more about it sooon!

1.met jas 630am on 13th April @ Tamp MRT platform
2. reached Paya Lebar was searching for Golden Mile Complex.
3. Check in at five star counter.
4. 8am board the BUS!
5. long journey to Taus!
6. Scan my pp at the wrong page?! used the manual instead..LOl!
7.Journey continued !!
8. had an awesome rest!
9. reached rest stop: there are many fishes!

10. journey continued !
11. reached Malysia checked in !!
12. journey continued !!
13. reached Capitol Hotel !!
14. checked in and off we go shopping at Berjaya Times Sqaure!
15: had lunch at Papa John's Pizza! fantastic!
16. continued shopping! place is too big!!
17. had dinner at Penang village restaurant then back to Hotel!
18. showered !
19. played monopoly cards!
20 turn in ! around 12am plus !
21. woke up at ard 8am * simply love the bed! had a great rest!
22. showered etc
23. off for breakfast!

24. shopping continued !!
25. check out from hotel at 230pm!
26. off to take bus back to singapore!
27. Journey was alright! watching show on TV!
28: fell asleep.. woke up again.. repeat HAHA!
29. journey continued till.....
30. reached Malaysia check out section!
31. journey continued!
32. reached singapore!! Taus!!
33. home sweet home!

I miss KL still! the bed!! HAHA! somehow nicer than my own bed HAHA!

21st advance.

2010-04-11T02:44:00.000+08:00

10th April 2010- advance celebrated my 21st birthday!
All thanks to Jingwen,Veron, Christopher, Chinho and Albert's surprizes!
Simply touched by them!

Thanks for the treats! gift! Thanks for the hand made cookies by Jingwen! It's yummpy!

You guys are so sweet!

Thanks for sending your smile into my life(:

oh yes! 1 more day! tues 13th April is the day! I am so excited!

shall update more once i return ((((:

i'm sad !

2010-04-10T02:42:00.002+08:00

carrying the burden of supporting the family is indeed tough! Nevertheless, it enlarged my capacity not be tempted to buy stuff that are wants. my dearest self birthday is coming! this cheers me up! I cant wait for the trip(: away from home shortly where peace becomes reality. no one will really understand how I feel. No one. not many will experience the things I went through and are still ongoing. there are common ones though..
Many times I feel like giving up, but how could I? Things will worsen if i left. people are somehow selfish to certain extent may it be friends or family. Helped A, got scolding from B. Helped B, got repremanded from A.This is so "nice"! Moving forward is a mistake so is walking backwards. There are many big stones in my life and they grow bigger each time I try to solve them with double thoughts.How i wish they will be understanding.. How i wish they stand in my shoe. I understand their misery and tried to help them but in return how they response to me. My heart is broken and speechless. I dont feel like talking anymore.

Please lower your volume, it is already night time.
Please mind your language, do you know that it hurt me so much.
Please be understanding, do you know I am feeling so heavy because of you.
Please be silent if possible, my ears are tired of you already.

Anyway, drop the topic.

I am excited for the trip! I cant wait to find a job with good pay and venue(:

something off happened today when I was ordering my dinner.
staff: what you want?
me: dao bao thank you.
staff:: you want take away me?
me: -,-! i want dao bao thank you.
then start pointing on the desire food.
At the cashier:
staff: oh you work at that pet shop.
me: ya.
staff: it's hard to find such caring girl.
me: -,-! as if....( mentioned in my heart)

this staff served me previously, he is so de LOL!
i could still remember the incident when he was returning me the change.
He dropped the a dollar coin into my hand super funny!
I was like -,-!

anyway, those who work at pet shop does not mean they are caring people with really caring heart okay..
i met some who are really.. no mention. I believe you get what i mean.

Oh yes... i found a job! human resource office.. but i cant work! current job lacks of manpower. I felt bad to leave. but who cares for me? hai,,, why am i so nice in some ways.... i often get drunk by such problem:(

3 more days!!! happpy still(:

no rights

2010-04-07T03:15:00.000+08:00

Everyone of us make different level of choices may it be a decision for one self or recommending a suggestion to others. Ultimately, we dont have the rights to judge them. Stop judging and start understanding.

Bumped into Yong Xiu and Fai Ji last week on sunday at Tampines 1 !
I waved at her using my water bottle and she was so shocked !
Work is definitely 1st however temporary it is because i need to clear some outstanding and refinancing at home. So much to do yet with little resource. It will increase! I confess ! I shall find a even better pay job! at east if possible HAHA! being an adult, transportation has been a heavy load for me. finance breakthrough I confess in Your Name!

Quite sad I didnt go for Easter Celebration. I still want to take this time to appreciate His Faithfulness!
He is just awesome! experience it yourself then u'll get what I mean.

oh yes! 6 more days and I am off to KL! I am so excited for the trip with JAS!
my 21st celebration at KL! I believe it will be fun! and more funs!

i cant wait! 13 April! come quick! run!!

more trips coming my ways!
finance breakthough I confess!

catching it !!

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1st Apr: super tired at work. #1: One of my colleague is hospitalized. #2: came a philippine staff.
many things i got to help out after one of my colleague is transfered to other outlet :(
There's still lots I need to learn jiayou! self !

To JAS ! counting down man! 11 more days! it seems so long still :(( i want go there to have lots of fun!
I shall upload all the pics! Let's take like crazy man! yesss! till camera memory, hp memory full !

To: Jessica! jiayou! no matter how things are going on in your life, press on!
I believe good things! good news! is on your way! Keeping smiling!
btw whenu going rp to buy the graduation clothe?

* could not tag u my ie LOL..

TODAY is 2nd of Apr! it shall be great! :( i cant go expo:( financially tight man but it shall be broken sooon!
shall top up once i get my pay! this sat? next week? HAHA! working hard and working smart !
with Him shall be smarter(:

good night peers!

29Mar-1Apr WOOTS!

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29th Mar: Bension and JAS! shocked me! Thanks for the surprized visit ! Thanks for the choco ice blended((:
catching up with friends is really a tough task. I'm busy but not fully packed. I really need to make time for my friends. this 10th, 13-14th April shall be an awesome time spend with my friends!

30th Mar: Alice and Jimmy last second day working at T1:( gonna miss their presence.
They are so nice to be with at work so cheerful! smiles attract indeed!

31st Mar:: May Alice prosper in her career! pay incredment! bonus! May Jimmy to be able to adapt to new working environment! You can speak! Lastly, jiayou to both!

1st April:

It is human nature to think wisely and act foolishly.

- Anatole France (1844 - 1924)

oh yes! thought of wearing contact lens again! still thinking which brand to choose........